Sex, Blood and Rock & Roll

Oh what a day!

2006-09-06T19:59:36Z

Dear live journal,

Hey..Sorry I haven’t written in a while. Been busy with school and all…And now that I am 17, I can finally say I’m almost an adult…a Legal Adult ^_^ I’m getting old but anyways. Yeah, my birthday was like a month or two ago…lol Had a great time due to the fact that 1. Ralph said and wished me a happy birthday; 2. Went bowling with my best friend Yana; and 3. I went to Medieval Times Dinner and Tournament. My mom, my sister, Eliana and I went and we got the Black and White Knight…he got to the end until the kings “loyal subject” and friend, betrayed our knight and “killed” him (By quoting Kill it means its not real got it?) And well, the Red and yellow knight won -_- lol but it was still fun cuz I got a black goblet (that goes with me), my mom bought me a rose that lights up, got to cheer for a really cute knight (lol o_-) and the pictures that were taken. I’d say a perfect dinner to finish off the day : D And the presents were cool. Let’s see: I got money, monkey stuff, dinner, a skirt and a corset, a rose that lights up, a black goblet, 2 bowling rounds (with Yana) and huggies and kissies ^_^

All my presents rocked. But hey guess what? Remember how Ralph broke up with me? Well, that very same night, he said and wished me a happy b-day and he talked to me about kids (well, baby’s to be exact). But mostly about how we both thought that we’d have our kids. I’d have his, we’d be together and from there….be a family. I do want a family and yes with him. The thing is that I’m afraid to lose him and hey…I’ve already lost him. OFFICIALLY!

Change of subject for today. I went to Mexico for a week and a half. Mom and I stayed at my uncle Cuco’s and aunt Leti’s home. Not very stylish and not a place where I can call home but my mom told me not to expect anything outta their home cuz they don’t live a nice place like mom and I do.

The talks my uncle and I had were fucking weird though. I mean, jesus fucking christ! WTF!! What kinda person thinks money comes first in life. I mean, I know its necessary for a living and all but come on, Money is NOT the basic unit of life for me. For me at least.

Anyways…other than that, I’ve started school, and I’m currently in my school’s library, or should I say Cybrary? Lol joke man, it’s a joke. But yeah, I got no classes for 6^th and 7^th period for now but imma be Axelgard’s T.A. That’s if I get accepted and all. But for now I’m just “chillin’”

Other than that, guess what? I have an F-ing job now. I have to fucking work tomorrow after school again! Try having to go to school Monday through Friday then suddenly go straight to work right after school. I can’t fucking do that, its too hard for me to do. At least work or my boss, whichever, gave me a chance to start half an hour later like 4:30. So I don’t got to rush as much and not start work outta breath and all.

So again, I have another problem. I have a cute co-worker but hes 21 and his name Alexander (alex) yet I Still love Ralph and I have a few feelings for Omar -_- sssh!! I care about them all but not to the extent where I absolutely LOVE them. Except, only Ralph. Cuz I do love him but apparently he doesn’t love me nor does he care about me. And yeah…well.…...yeah

For now I take my leave. But I’ll try to be back as soon as I got more news and as soon as I can get my hands on more juicy stuff and the computer. Love you, peace out.

~Raven of the Night

(Monica Emelia Nava Aguayo)

P.S. I’m giving you a name. You will now be known as my Binky-Bunker-Boo! Lol cute name for cool diary I have online.

emmanefertiri89 @ 2006-06-12T21:28:00

2006-06-13T04:28:52Z

sorry i haven't written in a long time everyone...I've been busy with school and my fiance...Well about that...I no longer have a Fiance. He broke it off because he said he needed time for himself. And now...I'm HEARTBROKEN again........i thought i had passed that whole depression stage...but apparently not.

No one in this world knows how i Truly feel about him...I Truly, Deeply LOVE Ralph Hernandez!!! No matter what anyone says, I DO LOVE HIM!! I'm his forever and ever no matter what happens....

I still dont understand how i've been acting immature for the past few months though...I mean yeah, that's what he said that was making him think about us. But can someone PLEASE Tell ME, How the hell have i been acting immature? (other than saying "i'm quiet because i'm listening to you" or "You're not talking either"). That's why he got mad all the time because everytime we were on the fone, i'd stay quiet and shit...but Ok, I've learned my lesson. I Need to change that.

Now can someone please tell me What's a Good conversation to have with a boyfriend/Fiance??

well for now i will leave...i shall go into my dark area where i find COMPLETE solitude..Farewell and good-day to all. Your loving Pinky Girl

emmanefertiri89 @ 2005-09-02T12:25:00

2005-09-02T19:30:46Z

i adopted a Bunny!!!! my BUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!not much to say except my heart has been broken again...by Marin....he dumped me cuz of my moms doing...i LOVED him....well so much for love for me...gtg...ttyl ppl...

emmanefertiri89 @ 2005-08-23T15:15:00

2005-08-23T22:27:48Z

i have a BOYFRIEND!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol...his name is Marin...and hes all mine....YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!…lol…yup im taken…so yea…we met at skool but since Friday(or was it Saturday??..anyways)…I was hyper I put up a sign that said “Lap Dance for $5”…so he wanted one and he was all like “well the hell w/ it...ok look heres how i see it...(crosses fingers) ok u know i think ur a very attractive girl..and well i cant believe my luck for what ur willing to do w/ me..seriously im just OMG im the luckies s.o.b on the planet...thats my thinking...but i frekin like u and i dont want to come to being sooo close to u and then just watch u walk away....am i making anysense?” which meant he likes me…so from there we went out yesterday…we went to subway(he didn’t kno there was one close to the mall..lol)..so then we went to look for a present for his sis b-day, then we went to Borders, from there we went to his house…it was nice where he lives…NICE big place…lol…so then he took me to his bedroom…he left me to do the choosing of the music and I picked Kelly Clarkson’s CD of Breakway…so we were huggin and kissin..but not like big kisses cuz then we decided to change the CD to No Doubts CD of the Fave songs…the one with the silver/grey-ish box…anyways…yea…from then on…we made out completely…we were on each other..taking turns…lol…and he took his shirt off which was WOW…he has a nice chest…lol..ssshhh…so from there…he started kissing my lips…moving down to my chest…so then I was on top of him…and then I noticed that he was moving me up and down as if we were doing IT but I had my pants on,,so nothing happen….lol…and from there we spent the rest of our time together making out…but yea…that was MY day…that’s the day I got my crush…the guy I liked for so long…lol…ssh..well gtg ttyl ppl…muahz!!

emmanefertiri89 @ 2005-08-14T15:14:00

2005-08-14T22:18:09Z

You are a Cancer, the funniest sign of the zodiac.
You are family-oriented, loyal, lovable, kind,
sensitive, intuitive and imaginitive! You are
very, very protective of your friends, and you
give them great advice! The animal you are most
like is, a crab! Crabs are very smart, mabe
thats why they have lived for over 500 million
years! Crabs have a tough exteriorin which they
hide their soft-selfs (just like you and your
emotions). And just like the crab, you have two
ways to go in life, the hard lifeless shell or
the heart! -your lucky colors are sea green(the color of your
home, the sea) and silver(the color of the
moon) -your metal is silver (me:didnt see that one
comming*note the sarcasum*) -your precious stone is a pearl -your lucky day of the week is monday -your element is water -the planet you are ruled by is the moon, hey your
just like the tides, you know the moon makes
the tides go in and out!! Oh well, guess not -the parts of the body that you rule are your
stomach and breasts(me:stop giggling, he he) -your true love comes from a scorpio, pisces,
taurus, or your own cancer!

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*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Monica
Birthday:	7-22-89
Birthplace:	Huntington Park, California
Current Location:	Glendale, California
Eye Color:	Brown
Hair Color:	Brown
Height:	5'3
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	hispanic
The Shoes You Wore Today:	B.G.
Your Weakness:	people...who hurt me..EVERY F-ing DAY
Your Fears:	being Killed in San Fransisco
Your Perfect Pizza:	Cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	get good grades
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	lol
Thoughts First Waking Up:	"what does my dream mean?"
Your Best Physical Feature:	Chest
Your Bedtime:	iono
Your Most Missed Memory:	Missing Mario...cute guy...
Pepsi or Coke:	coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	McDonalds
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	None
Chocolate or Vanilla:	None
Cappuccino or Coffee:	coffee
Do you Smoke:	No
Do you Swear:	Yes
Do you Sing:	yes......^.^
Do you Shower Daily:	HECK YES
Have you Been in Love:	Yes
Do you want to go to College:	No...i wanna go to University..DUH!!
Do you want to get Married:	Yes
Do you belive in yourself:	no
Do you get Motion Sickness:	iono
Do you think you are Attractive:	Hell NO
Are you a Health Freak:	no
Do you get along with your Parents:	FUCK NO
Do you like Thunderstorms:	yes
Do you play an Instrument:	not anymore
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	no
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	No
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	NO
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	EWW no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	No
In the past month have you been Dumped:	um...iono
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	NO
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	No
Ever been Drunk:	Yes
Ever been called a Tease:	Noo...
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	iono..i think i did once
How do you want to Die:	Dont know...Dont care
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	Death/Lawyer
What country would you most like to Visit:	England
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Blue, Brown, or Green
Favourite Hair Color:	Dont care
Short or Long Hair:	either
Height:	taller than me thats for SURE
Weight:	i like NICE shaped guys...
Best Clothing Style:	uh....no "gansters" PLZ!!
Number of Drugs I have taken:	none
Number of CDs I own:	iono....do i gotta count?
Number of Piercings:	None
Number of Tattoos:	None...do fake ones count??
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	moving to Glendale..i SOMETIMES regret it...
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

emmanefertiri89 @ 2005-07-21T20:27:00

2005-07-22T03:34:22Z

hey ppl....wow long time no update here....lol....well um...yea.....tomorrow is my 16th Birthday...imma FINALLY be 16!!!! *squeal* lol....im finally gonna become a LADY......well....for sure i WONT have a sweet sixteen b-day party....i mean i wuld want one but hey....i dont NEED one...as long as i know i've proven myself a LADY in one year im good with that....lol....yes i HAVE proven myself a LADY in ONE year!! lol...im so HAPPY!!! oh i got new pix of me that michelle took while we were buying drinks..(soda and a Boba).....and while we were at the mall....lol...enjoy....and Peace out ppl...LUV YA!!<--Me<-- and Me<--thats Michelle

emmanefertiri89 @ 2005-02-25T21:24:00

2005-02-26T05:26:02Z

OMG i am so....embarrassed....!!! Dennis was NOT the 1 who called my home on Sunday........it was a guy friend named Jonathan....which sux cuz Dennis wrote bak 2 me in the same letter saying “I’d love to go to the movies with you...But unfortunately I lost your phone number” or something like that....anyways....I wrote bak 2 him asking if he wanted my number again...which I doubt he’ll want....*sighs* hes so dreamy but I KNOW I have NO possible chance of being with HIM....omg also 2day since it was free dress day I wore a cute top my mom had made 4 me like a few months ago...some ppl were asking me if I was Pregnant...wtf????? I wish I was...oh and me and Luis r getting a divorce *wink wink* lol....yeah hes accusing me of cheating on him (due 2 the fact I wore a shirt that made me look PREGNANT!!) lol....so anyways yeah...i feel like such an idiot about me asking Dennis if he called on Sunday and it NOT being him!! Im such an IDIOT!! I swear imma DIE if I cant get a guy by the fucking end of this Semester...as in the end of the skool year....lol...i just remembered that Yana was saying “make way 4 the pregnant lady...comin thru....”during snack and lunch time......and she even screamed it when DENNIS and his friend were around us...!!!!! lol...embarrassing moments 4 me BUT FUN!! Well im off...c ya all around....BYE!!

This is really from February 23, 2005

2005-02-26T05:25:16Z

Hey ppl....wats up? Ok so 2day i wrote Dennis a small letter/note tellin him the whole brother being an asshole......thingy....so yeah....im still waiting 2 c if he calls me or writes bak 2 me by 2morrow....which im hoping he WILL...cuz I just feel so bad 4 not showing up....i bet nething I stood him up.....so im still in between of being either happy or sad....so yeah.........but 2day when he came in2 the classroom he didn’t seem sad/mad...but hey u never kno....he culd b hiding how he felt when I stood him up on Sunday....FUCKING ALEX!!!!!!(Alex=brother).....im so...EEK!! PLEASE DENNIS CALL ME!!! PLEASE!!!

The bad part of 2day is that I have 2 go 2 a fucking Confirmation class meeting @ the church from 7 to 9 p.m...............which SUX!!! OOOh!! This Friday is FREE DRESS DAY!!! YAY!! Of course this free dress day is gonna come on an ODD day!! As in imma have Dennis 4 the 1^st class of the day!!! So I plan 2 wear a cute spaghetti strap shirt with another shirt under it....so yeah...i hope Yana brings her camera so she can take a pic then ill send it 2 me and then ill POST it!! Lol....well I sure as hell MISS Dennis!!! Ive never been this crazy about some1 since Haik... (A guy that used 2 look like Harry Potter...so we r just friends now)....lol...i MISS DENNIS!!

OMG im so close 2 getting my new guitar....imma practice so much so mayb I can b in the CMHS (Clark Magnet High School) talent show with my band...or mayb we’ll b dancing 2 J.Lo. “Get Right” song.......so yeah...im so close 2 finishing the whole Choreography 4 my friends and I have only gotten 2 like 2minutes and 43 seconds and the song is only 3minutes and 45 seconds.....i LOVE the “Get Right” music video....so yeah...i bet this is all borin 2 EVERY1!!!!

< -----John Stamos... (Dennis has the same haircut as him except Dennis’ hair color is reddish/orange...)...Both Dennis and John Stamos are

Well gtg...BYE!! Leave me comments...lol...MUAHZ!!

emmanefertiri89 @ 2005-02-25T21:13:00

2005-02-26T05:15:15Z

emmanefertiri89 @ 2005-02-04T16:30:00

2005-02-05T00:43:00Z

These icons will b dedicated 2 my brother cuz he so liked the movie of Napoleon Dynamite...i seriously need 2 find it so that i can buy it 4 him............. but the problem is, is that they always run-out of the movie....so yeah.....<--Me<--Me<--Me...lol...im not that skinny though...i consider myself FAT!! but yeah....i hate my mom...she treats me like crap just YANA...she a goth...but she so tries 2 b 1....if she were a goth she wuldnt listen to Maroon 5...even i dont listen 2 them...they SUK @ singing....and i think i do 2...OMG i do suk @ singing....OOH looks its a statue of Count Vladislaus Dracula......cool huh?....and look my fave vampire girls...i just LOVE their clothing...its so sexy...so yeah...no Skool 2day....finals finished yesterday....and no skool on Monday also....i swear 2 god imma get kicked out of Clark Magnet High School cuz of my bad grades....but i hope i pass this semester and i get better grades 4 the 3rd quarter grades so i can keep going 2 that fucked up skool cuz i DONT wanna go to Glendale High....well imma go cuz i wanna clean my room b4 the Bitch (my mom) comes home....Bye....

emmanefertiri89 @ 2005-01-23T00:31:00

2005-01-23T08:31:54Z

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emmanefertiri89 @ 2005-01-17T21:54:00

2005-01-18T05:56:42Z

Hey ppl…okay so ive been thinkin either 2 bcome a smoker (which I doubt I’ll ever b) or just a normal person...okay c now that’s where it gets hard 4 me…ive been thinking about it and im just not sure…so I found out 2day that my brother and my mom don’t believe I can graduate well from High skool…which is pretty FUCKED UP!!! I mean come on…I kno it may seem like i cant make it but i CAN…if u just have faith in me……which no 1 does…*sighs* so I went with my mom and bro 2 the Snata Anita mall 2day and I went to Hot Topic and baught 5 pins: 1 says “Everyone Loves Me”, another 1 says “Bleeding Through”, 3^rd 1 says “Hooray for Skans” (this 1 and the next r both Happy Bunny), 4^th 1 says “Im bad and You Love it”, the 5^th 1 is a Led Zeppelin…so yeah…my mom (as always) got her Ice Blended Mocha……and then we went in2 Disney Store cuz my bro was looking 4 an Incredibles Doll…we have 2 now…….kinda stupid though…so yeah…im not feeling very well 2day cuz I had taken my pill that’s supposed 2 help with my acne…so imma go…nite every1…need me u kno wat 2 do…Peace

~Emma N..

emmanefertiri89 @ 2005-01-16T14:21:00

2005-01-16T22:26:15Z

Ladies and Gentlemen: I have officially smoked my 1^st cigarette...It tasted kinda nasty...but still......now u must b wondering wat made me do that...well I just came back from church/mass...so neways...i was picking out little strings out of my new sweater cuz it had a bunch of little white things cuz I had washed it in the laundry...so anyways...while I was picking them out my moved away from and I was like (in my mind): “oh..so now ur gonna imitate the fucking lady that did that 2 her daughter at church last Sunday?” so then I got mad at her and I was like in my head: “how ‘bout I take my vengeance by become VERY rebellious...so when the mass finished she went 2 the restroom and I was next 2 a tree waiting and thinking actually promising myself that I wuld make sure I bcome rebellious.......and so yeah…imma put this sign of

No Smoking on my bedroom door…but I aint gonna smoke no more…its NASTY!! Lol I guess it was a once in a life time thing…oh ppl u gotta c the movie “MAY” its so scary and funny and nasty…its so COOL!! My bro rented it yesterday and we saw it and so kicks ASS!!! Lol…well imma go cuz imma eat im hungry…oh and by the by…my mom droped me off and she left I guess she has a BIG attitude/Anger management problem..Luv ya all LOTS!!! MUAHZ!!

emmanefertiri89 @ 2005-01-04T21:51:00

2005-01-05T05:52:32Z

So yeah......*clears throat* I think im getting sick...my tummy hurts...wuld it b cuz im getting FAT!! EEK!! OMG yesterday…Dennis (how ever u spell his cute name) said hi to me...but not just like “Hi” he was like “Hey Monica...Whats up?” and this was after the bell rang 2 get 2 class which wuld b 1st period......Geometry*sighs* he’s in my class and he’s a Senior!! *squeals* Ohh I think I got questions 4 people 2 fill out....like a LOVE survey...hmm....... nah...4get it......its 2 hard 2 make 1...lol..im so LAZY!! Well theres not much 2 say except that Dennis is getting cutter!! OMFG......I swear to fucking god im getting so pissed @ 1 of my friends...she thinks nothings wrong with her going out with my ex...Ok...1. Its not okay its cuz im not over him... (Completely) 2. Friends don’t do that stuf 2 1-another...3. Cuz if they do go out with an ex of mine...Oh its bad 4 them cuz im willing 2 bak-stab them...i think that’s wat imma do...Some of u may notice that ive turned from an “Innocent young girl” to a “Back-Stabbing WHORE” well that’s me!! No 1 can change me..its who I am..*sighs* well imma go cuz I gotta get my backpack ready

emmanefertiri89 @ 2004-12-30T23:25:00

2004-12-31T07:33:20Z

OMG THE Phantom of the Opera

2004-12-30T23:33:04Z

OMG i LUV “The Phantom of the Opera” it’s the best movie ever!!! Imma buy it when it comes out on DVD!!! The Phantom guy is so DAMNHere r some pix from the movie...:

I kno wat imma b 4 Halloween in 2005…im gonna b the chick from “The Phantom of the Opera” Imma make my mom make me the a dress that she wore…I kno its kinda random (and early) to ask this but........If ur willing 2 b my Phantom 4 halloween (any guy) I’d really b happy) plus u get 2 wear a cape and a white mask which is really cute..*sighs* well imma go cuz imma watch HP3…LUV ya..MUAHZ!!!

My day....Today...lol

2004-12-29T06:41:18Z

Hey ppl…im bak….FINALLY!!! So yeah…2day all I’ve been playin is HP3 on my computer…..its so much fun but I got stuck in 1 level…in which Hermione has 2 pass the Final exam of the “Draconifors” spell and the “Lapifors” spell…Its so freakin hard…but I already passed the part in which Harry faces the Dementors…I shuldnt really b talking ‘bout HP in this site…….I shuld talk ‘bout it in My HP Site…Well imma give u links 2 my xanga sites that r 4 different categories…i hope u enjoy them and plz…Sign my Guestbook. i’d really appreciate that:

My Harry Potter Site

My New Xanga site

My Jeremy Sumpter Site

My Star Wars Site

My Charmed Site

My Old (but still in use) Xanga

My Girly Site

My Britney Spears site

So yeah…*sighs* 2day has been a good day so far…….i’ve acted like a baby kid with my mom and I’ve been getting huggies and kissies from my mommy.lol. im such a little Brat.lol…well..imma go so Bye every1..remember i luv ya all LOTS!! MR HOTTIE!!!

Coming Back from San Francisco

2004-12-28T07:50:35Z

IM BAK!!!! Damn it feels so good 2 b bak from San Francisco......*sighs* so 4 x-mas I got: Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban computer game, cool gloves or whatever u call ‘em, a cute top (spaghetti strap) in purple, a black sweater, and the list goes on with 1 more item which im 2 lazy 2 describe….lol…The plane trip was fun..i enjoyed the ride… well thank god that im home now cuz my sis bf parents…r so ANNOYING!!! We..imma go cuz I wanna play HP3 game…its so funLuv ya all lots…MUAHZ!!